Bad Intentions; Good Choices

What do I mean by bad intentions; good choices? Well, just that. Remember how I told you in my last post that I stumble and I fall? Well this post will show that as well as how sometimes I stumble and then catch myself. This is more of a confessional then a post. I just feel that by writing this down, it will be a reminder to me the next time I hit a low.

Let's set up the scene. I'm a bowler. You know a ball, a lane and 10-pins. I'm a decent bowler averaging somewhere in the mid 180's. Not great, not bad. I did a tournament his past weekend with a  buddy of mine. It was basically we bowled 6 games, 3 of those are used as doubles (total includes my three game total and his three game total) and the other 3 are used as a singles score. That's a lot of background that probably isn't needed, but, allow me this license to tell my story. Long story short, I bowled really, really bad. Not horrible in the doubles portion, but really bad in the singles. Sadly, that day my emotions were tied directly to my ability or non-ability to bowl. What did I do? Yup, you guessed it turned to food. Why? Food makes me feel better. Ok, in all fairness I had the intention to turn to food. I succeeded in a lot of ways to not turn to food. Here is that story...

I had to go directly from bowling to one of my other hobbies...I'm a role-player. What's a role-player? Well, ever hear of Dungeons and Dragons? I do that and I love it. However, I will tell you all about my strange hobbies another time. I had to grab food on the way. First thing in my head was Hardee's, great burgers and I could make it "healthy" by having them wrap it in lettuce. So low carb, but, not low fat or low anything I should eat. Well, after arguing with myself, I ended up at Subway. Here, I ordered a salad (not chopped). Got my chicken breast salad with spinach, tomatoes, cucumbers, pickles, onions and banana peppers. Got a couple diet cokes and 3 cookies. See here we stumble again. On my way, I open the small paper envelope with the raspberry cheesecake cookies in it and proceed to eat a cookie. It tasted wonderful, but, couldn't enjoy it because I was arguing with myself the whole time. So in a blind thought, I opened the window and threw the other 2 cookies out the window. A win! Except for that whole littering part. At least everything is bio-degradable.

that is my story of bad intentions; good choices. This shows that I still struggle, even with the fact that I have lost a bunch of weight. It shows that even when your bad you can still make good choices. Perfection is not needed, will power is. Even if you make one bad choice, you can make many more good choices. I hope this story helps in someway for you.

Until next time Gentle Reader,

Jaxion Rebel