Walking Again...

Hello Gentle Reader!

Yesterday a group of my friends and I decided to go for a walk before we started role-playing last night. It was then that I realized exactly how much I have gotten out of shape. It was a walk slightly over 3 miles, which I was doing just in the morning at the beginning of summer. Now, I thought it was pretty hard, not impossible, but hard enough. This has to end and it will. we did just over 3 miles last night and though I am tired and sore today, my wife and I went and did 1.75 miles at lunch. Yes, it still hurts and my legs are very sore, but, I am doing it. I will not go back to the way I was.

I have come up with a new motto...I'll never go back! What's that mean? Simply that. I spent a good portion of the last 2 years losing around 150 pounds. I now know what I felt like before and what I feel like now. I have gained 40 pounds over the summer and since July 4th, I have lost 14 pounds of that again. I am serious about never going back to that lifestyle. I enjoyed the weight I was at and would like to lose more. I have a great structure of support behind me, I just sometimes have motivational issues and I love food. I was raised not to waste food and as a result, that meant you ate what you put on your plate, even if you groaned for hours later. It was the side effect of growing up in a poor family. NO WASTING. I have had a hard time defeating this specific mindset. It is so ingrained in my mind, that I will catch myself eating amounts and things I really don't want because it's in front of me.

As I have been learning a new way to do things, I have found that if I say no and never get started, it's a lot easier to keep to my lifestyle and lose the weight. If I start, then I eat and can't seem to stop. For now, I will just say no. At some point I will need to learn to be able to say yes and then just have one or two. May of you will remember the old potato chip slogan..."Betcha can't eat just one!" right now this is true. Now, I have to be able to work to a more normal way of life. I see people all over being able to eat and drink in moderation, that's what I need to learn. I'll keep you all posted on how this will work for me going forward.

Until next time, Gentle Reader,
Jaxion Rebel